Showing posts with label Lost. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Lost. Show all posts

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Time Flies

Life is getting busier,
time flies, just blink of an eye, final exam is around the corner,
meaning I've to separate with my gang next semester?
Don't care, we must choose the same timetable kay?





We broke the record, 7 of us 'squeeze' into 1 car,
even the guard got shocked, LOL.
When we took photo at the front gate,
I wonder why the guard wanna take photo with us, he was so HIGH!
*he's good in posing anyway*
I even saw someone in the UTAR bus pointing and laughing at us when the bus passed by,
everyone was looking at us.
we became so famous all because of our craziness.

You all really meant a lot to me!
We care, we share, we smile, we laugh, we cry, we sigh, all together!
Thanks for coming into my life, greatly appreciate it :D
Hoping that our friendship will never die!

Btw, I hate someone boastful.
I still cannot forget what you said to me,
how disgusting! YUCKKK! *WTF to that*
I think should slap you that time.
No idea why everytime you like to interrupt people's conversations,
acting like you know everything,
but you're truly do not, you're just talking craps,
can't you just stop annoying us?
You're always an unwelcome guest as long as you behave like shit.




Keep arguing with him past few days,
I need a shoulder to cry on,
I need someone to comfort me,
am so tired, I just felt that I couldn't stand it any longer.
I don't let my tears to drop so easily, and it makes me look strong,
but actually not, am so fragile.
I lost my feelings, my mind is so blank.
Can somebody tell me, is there any way to turn back?
Pulling a rubber band too hard, end up break.
Of course, I wish this will not happen on us.
Now only I realized that, love ain't easy.

I know I shouldn't being so cold to you,
gimme some times, time heals my wound.
Everything will be fine.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

分岔路

走到分岔路口的我该如何选择未来的人生?


自以为明确地看见自己要走的路
竟然还是动摇了
Foundation还是A-levels?

忘了list down disadvantages = =lll

看着身边的朋友个个满怀理想胸怀大志
Form 6,A-Level
他们即将开学了
抬头却发现停在原点的就只有我

想要实现梦想
是异想天开吗?是天马行空吗?
可是我真的有那份热情
如果只靠自己的力量打拼
我到底行吗?
我很质疑自己的能力 我没自信

我不想再无所事事蹉跎时间了
再逃避 也总得选择
我喜欢这句话
迷失是为了辨认方向
我相信一定能走出属于自己的路

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

BLUR+CONFUSING+LOST


(Camwhored with mommy yday=D )

Hi peeps!
I didn't update my blog more than one week,
feel like keeping my blog alive but I've no idea what to blog.

What to study?
Accounting or Food Science?
Confusing+lost!
I couldn't see how's my future.
My interest is actually in the field of Science,
but if for the good of my future life,
Accounting is a better choice.
FS and accounting are totally 2 different things!
I feel that my head is gonna explode!
Should I go for my interest? Or go for a better working life?

If Imma choose FS, what to do if I didn't selected by Matrik?
As I know colleges' FS have a lower educational standard, maybe the facilities and lab stuffs are not fully equipped...unless I study overseas, but, SUPER DUPER EXTREMELY EXPENSIVE!

For Accounting, Idk why I sense that it will be kinda boring.
However, the best things are I can make-up and wear like an OL and work in a air-conditioned office. Plus, many colleges available for me to choose. (Sunway College, TARC, UTAR and so on.)

Bii study in UTAR currently,
it's great if I study in UTAR too,
but Kampar lack of entertainment=(

What to study...what to study...what to study...

Friday, February 11, 2011

Open Your Eyes

Open your eyes
Just say goodbye ,
这个夜晚是应该哭个痛快.
相遇不算太晚,
相爱不算太短,
现在正好适合离开.
Open your eyes
and say goodbye ,
只是不懂怎么还笑得出来.
承诺已经不再,
叹息无可计算.
再不离开泪就要泛滥.
每一种决定都像肝肠寸断,
每一种选择都是心有不甘.
过了今晚你要开始学著勇敢,
不可知的未来, 你要自己承担.
每一种决定都像肝肠寸断,
每一种选择都是心有不甘.
诚实并不代表容许背叛,
这样的爱, 只是错误的示范.

富士山下

拦路雨偏似雪花
饮泣的你冻吗
这风褛我给你磨到有襟花
连掉了迹也不怕
怎么始终牵挂
苦心选中今天想车你回家
原谅我不再送花
伤口应要结疤
花瓣铺满心里坟场才害怕
如若你非我不嫁
彼此终必火化
一生一世等一天需要代价
谁都只得那双手
靠拥抱亦难任你拥有
要拥有必先懂失去怎接受
曾沿着雪路浪游
为何为好事泪流
谁能凭爱意要富士山私有
何不把悲哀感觉
假设是来自你虚构
试管里找不到它染污眼眸
前尘硬化像石头
随缘地抛下便逃走
我绝不罕有
往街里绕过一周
我便化乌有
情人节不要说穿
只敢抚你发端
这种姿态可会令你更心酸
留在汽车里取暖
应该怎么规劝
怎么可以将手腕忍痛划损
人活到几岁算短
失恋只有更短
归家需要几里路谁能预算
忘掉我跟你恩怨
樱花开了几转
东京之旅一早比一世遥远
你还嫌不够
我把这陈年风褛
送赠你解咒

《富士山下》歌词含义

Thursday, January 27, 2011

最终还是当了一次坏人大义灭亲
说出了事实
是好?还是坏?

Monday, April 26, 2010

累。泪


心 还能愈合吗?

信任是巩固情侣间的柱子
少了它的支撑
那这段感情还能走多久?

我只想默默地流泪
默默地心疼
不让你知道

我们都累了吗?

Saturday, October 10, 2009

心 往哪兒去了? ♥

天下起雨了
這種天氣總是最影響心情的

聽著我的playlist寫部落格真的很舒服

去年的時候
下雨總會聼《雨念》
當時想念一個不愛我的人

今天
我夢見了他
我在某地方遇見了他
我走過去和他聊天
感覺真得很甜蜜

潛意識裏的我
依然像往常一樣思念他?
我不懂
其實 我已經很久沒有像以前那樣想他想得快瘋了

成功了嗎?

唯有自己的才知道答案
______________________________

那天補習回家后
媽咪看了《女人我最大》后竟然要幫我綁頭髮耶
她說她在節目看到林業婷老師綁的龐克風馬尾很漂亮
所以就試試替我綁嘍
不過一半就放棄了
她忘記怎樣綁了 哈哈



媽咪很久沒替我綁頭髮了
有種回到小時候的味道
很溫馨
很喜歡媽咪幫我綁頭髮的感覺
“手勢”一流
______________________________

前天學校舉行了一個教育展

我走丫走
希望能夠尋到最終的目標
但是我的心還是15 16
前路該何走下去?

Design,Mass Com,Psychology,Hotel Management,Biotech等等
我都想過要進修的
尤其是Design, Mass Com和 Psychology
可是出路不多

我很想到國外念丫
可是費用很貴
我的成績又普普通通
不可能得到scholarship啦

很煩惱
雖然說還有一年的時間決定
可是我現在不知道讀書到底是爲了什麽


Wednesday, October 7, 2009


*zombie id designed by my bro*

Wrote a lousy essay about zombies,
not because of the idea,

but the description of mine.

The title given is "my heart beating fast when...",

then use our creativity to write our ideas out.


I wanna write about the experience which took photo with Owen Yap at first,

but a bit hard to describe the feeling.

I asked Bii whether what should I write,

Yooohhh, his mind arr..

full with those half-life lar, resident evil lar, blah blah blah...

heehee=D


I like his idea sooo much,

quite challenging and creative,

I never thought of that before ;*)

Thanks Bii Bii,

you're really giving a great help to me,

love you, muacksss


___________________________


Whats going on with me lately?

am I really misunderstood what they meant?

I'm too sensitive!

Guys,

I promise I'll not simply doubt you.


"If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken

Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools"


- stanza 2, line 5 and 6
from If by Rudyard Kipling-


I should learn this...



Whats next?
關於我的個人感言吧

Monday, September 28, 2009

接受還是退後?


我開始想
整件事的源頭會不會因我而起呢?
是不是都好

我不會像以前懦弱消極了


種種發生過的事情

告訴我

不要怠慢了
是時候成長了


我在這兒寫些什麽
不是想惹起什麽戰爭或口角

還是要詆毀誰

我還是一樣嚮往和平寧靜


我記得某人曾經說過自己的思想成熟了
我不懂他是帶著開玩笑還是認真的口吻說的


如果一個人的思想真的成熟了

他絕對不會那麽極端 很多事情都需要往很多方面和角度去思考的
也許會覺得自己就是一個那麽情緒化和麽暴躁的人

要知道

這個世界那麽大

其實一個自己是非常地渺小

不能一句情緒化還是脾氣暴躁就最大的

我們不能那麽意氣用事丫


一個人生氣不滿有情緒

很正常

因爲我們都是人類
可是不能將我們的情緒發洩在無辜的人身上


一個人生氣
如果把這個憤怒表露出來或某人頭上

影響的不只是自己 而是周圍的人

比如説
在一個狂歡派隊中
突然有一個朋友突然因爲不滿而鬧事

身邊的人的情緒多多少少都會受到干擾吧?

可知道憤怒和仇恨的“魔力”有多大了吧?

雖然我不可能完全不討厭別人
可是至少盡量見好就收咯


我們人丫

要學會接受

接受別人的批評

接受別人的斜視

接受別人的無理

接受別人的無禮

接受別人的無知
能的話就包容他們


也許無禮無理的批判我真的會火山爆發

可是有道理的我就會聼

然後加以反思

我不想當個單細胞

什麽都是以自己為中心
因爲這樣 只能活在自己的世界中
太過自我 別人也不能容忍太多次的


理智的人

會清楚自己的所作所爲


負責任的人

會承擔自己所作所爲的後果


我真的不像看到以前自己多麽醜陋

我不想看到有人成爲我的倒影

因爲
最終遭衆人討厭的
是自己

我的觀點不一定正確

也不一定做得到
我只是想要抒發自己内心的感受

想到什麽就寫什麽

好像什麽心事傾訴出來了

這種感覺很自在


微笑吧 朋友
其實你並不是最孤單的

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Young lil lama. ♥

Mom told me that a 12-year-old lama, Kang Tsa Holiness came to Bidor,
she asked me to go for praying,
it may able to change my fate I think,
I mean, he might made me lucky.

Happy go lucky,
I need happiness,
I really prayed for it,
perhaps the young lama could fulfill what I desire.

Am I superstitious or what?
Who care?
I just wanna to throw all the bullshits out of my mind,
they annoyed me for a long time man!

Something happened between me and the person,
I don't know what step should I take,
or may be just leave it aside?

I DON"T KNOW, I DON'T KNOW.

I don't know how come I made you so unhappy with me,
just tell me,
you have your own reasons I know,
but whether you wanna to be friend with me as before,
IT'S YOUR DECISION,
that I'll wait for it.

The lil lama,
I believe in you,
bless me please...

Friday, September 11, 2009

命運的玩弄


心情一直無法平伏
開心了好一陣子
傷心很快的就佔據了我的心神

傷心 但眼淚流不出來
這種感覺非一般的難受

怎麽覺得今年特別多事情發生
從是非 被威脅 感情問題 友情問題 學業問題 師生問題
是報應?還是考驗?

以樂觀的心態去看待的話
我相信這些只是考驗
告訴我該是時候成長
要懂得想了

但是現在的我
沒勇氣去面對

每走一步路
根本不知道自己會踩上什麽
是陷阱?是陰謀?是幸運?
停下來腳步猶豫時
又無法預測將有什麽難題

我很想可以快點統統挨過
我不懂自己能撐多久

趁著星期日去新加坡
我需要冷靜

真想一直逗留在那兒
其實美羅不多東西值得我留戀
除了家人,陪我渡過難關的朋友和比比之外

捲入了兩种情誼的糾紛
下一步我該怎麽走?

手擲。色子
主宰我的命運